And he said, “Go out and stand on the mount before the Lord.” And behold, the Lord passed by, and a great and strong wind tore the mountains and broke in pieces the rocks before the Lord, but the Lord was not in the wind. And after the wind an earthquake, but the Lord was not in the earthquake.12 And after the earthquake a fire, but the Lord was not in the fire. And after the fire the sound of a low whisper.
2 Kings 19:11-12
It’s a little depressing how longingly I’ve looked forward to the holiday season. I was looking forward to the family time, traditions, time off… yet I’ve hardly had a minute for any of the things I mentioned before, due to all the “things that need to get done” in “preparation for the season”.
Thanksgiving came and went, now Christmas coming at me like a speed train. The sad thing is that it’s nearly over, and I’ve missed most of the fun and anticipation. Most importantly, I’ve missed out on spending time with God. On November 30th I had it all figured out. I knew when I’d wake up and spend time in the word, and all the Christ centered activities the girls and I would do, but on December 1st, it all went down the drain.
I had BIG plans, books to read, places to go, handmade Christmas cards and decorations that were going to really put “Jesus at the center of the season”. I had BIG plans. After countless attempts to scrape the time to do these things, nothing got done, not one. I had BIG plans.
What I failed to see is that I don’t have to do BIG things, or have BIG plans for God to show up. Why did I expect Him to show up with flashing lights? Or to hear His voice through a megaphone?
He is in every hug I get from my kids everyday. He is in the countless “I love you” text messages I get from my husband. He is in the lunch time conversation with my 8 year old regarding her Sunday school lesson. He is in the excitement of my dog every time I get home.
HE is; even when I don’t plan on it.